A Little Bit At a Time…

So I’ve come to not like myself very much in recent months. It’s the little things that I notice, like not wanting to be around anyone, or having a hard time caring what others say… the only major change that has happened in the last year is my best friend decided to move in with me. She is my absolutely favorite person after my mom, but I think going from having my own space to there being someone there ALL THE TIME has started to wear on me…

This sounds like I’m complaining, but I think it’s alright to complain if you’re trying to remedy the situation. It is one of my biggest pet peeves when a person sits there and grumbles about something but does absolutely nothing to fix the situation.

So I’ve decided to try bettering myself a little bit at a time. My list of resolutions so far…

1. Be less lazy… this just means like if I want something, even if it’s on the other side of the room and someone else is standing next to it, I don’t ask them for it. I get off my fat butt and get it myself. Now this may not seem like a big deal to some, but for me it’s huge, because I am SO lazy if I’m enabled to be…

2. The second resolution on my list has been to say yes more often. I have a tendency to say no to a lot of things that other people want to do, but I’m not necessarily interested in. I guess that’s normal, but a big part of human interaction is give and take. I need to work on my giving…

3. Follow through with things. I have this tendency to start something, or say I’m going to do something, and never finish it. This it probably the hardest thing for  me to work on. I get really into something for few days, and then get bird with it. It’s really hard for me to focus on something long enough to get it done…

I also have a problem with making plans and then cancelling them. I say “sure, let’s do it!” And then the time comes and I’m not in the mood…

4. Smile more. It sounds so easy, but I have a hard time faking a smile, and sometimes a real smile. My brain wants to smile, but my mouth is like “um… no thanks…” I think a smile can really change how people perceive you.

There will definitely be more things I want to work on to better myself, but you have to take it one step at a time. As long as you want to change and you’re trying to change, you’ll get there eventually. You have to try though, because until you take action, nothing is going to happen…

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My turn to be emo…

Tonight I had my best friend tell me that I’m selfish. That one of my other best friends doesn’t like being around me because I’m negative all the time. Can’t there be a difference between being negative and being honest?

I suppose not everyone can appreciate my candor, but isn’t that a part of friendship? I like to think that a part of being a friend was being able to tell the truth, even when it hurts. But I suppose being able to bite your tongue when needed is part of it too. A part that I have yet to learn.

Is there anyone out there who can teach me to lie? To be positive when all I see is the realistic/negative side of things?

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I’m sitting on some random street near my apartment, typing this at 2:18am, wondering where/who I’m supposed to go to. My best friends are becoming better friends with eachother… so where exactly does that leave me?

I guess me worrying about where I belong is me being selfish… I should be happy they get along. I should be glad they have fun together. So why am I sitting in some random person’s front yard, upset at one friend for telling me the truth about another? Does being sad make me a hypocrite? Because I can speak the truth but not hear it?

This is just me getting my feelings out. There really isn’t anyone to talk to, much less in the middle of the night. So I write here… hoping maybe someone will read this and have some advice for a lost soul looking for a bit of solace in the words of a complete stranger.

If nothing comes of this, and no one ever reads it, that’s fine too. I’ll just swallow my sadness and cover it with sarcasm and wit. That fixes everything right?

Trainwreck? Yes please!

Okay, so let me start this off with saying I think Amy Schumer is hilarious! I would love to see her stand-up live someday, because she and I have a very similar sense of humor… We just say what everyone is thinking, but too afraid to say. For me, it’s both a blessing and a curse, because everyone I meet thinks I’m either hilarious or the biggest bitch they’ve ever met… I don’t let that detour me, don’t worry. 😉

As for the movie, it was a lot of hilarious, with a side of super awkward. I mean I’m no prude, but AMY! Some of the things in the first half, and a bit near the end, of the movie were SO AWKWARD! Definitely in a funny way, but I totally had to hide my face in embarrassment a few times. Despite all the awkward, I definitely recommend this movie, just please girls, don’t take your mothers to see this, haha.

Now to the spoiler portion of the review… One of the things I love most about this movie is that it’s an honest to goodness rom-com. I miss them SO HARD! I mean it takes me back to days of “How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days” and “Sweet Home Alabama” etc., not the greatest movies ever made, granted, but I love them all the same. This movie is about 75% com and only 25% rom, but it works. I absolutely love that Amy was the one who ended up doing the big gesture, and oh my god, her dancing had me cracking up. But, I was pretty much either laughing or embarrassed the entire movie.

Now on the negative side of things, the movie did drag on a bit for me. It was a very entertaining movie, but I felt it was a tad long. There were some things in the movie that I, personally, didn’t think needed to be in there, but that might just be me. Let me know if you agree! I did see this movie with my roommate at like 10:30 p.m. so it could just be my brain was ready to go home and sleep…

All in all I give this movie 4 out of 5. It was ridiculous! And who doesn’t like a nice does of ridiculous every now and then?

Paper Towns

7/27/15

Paper Towns

Alright… so let me start this movie review off by saying, I have not read the book. I read a lot, but I usually go for young adult fantasy or sci-fi; I don’t really enjoy reading something that makes me have to think too hard. Yet another problem with Americans, but that’s a topic for another day.

Back to the review… for having no real idea what this movie was supposed to be about, other than what could be put together from previews, I liked it. If you don’t want any spoilers, then please stop reading now.

All in all, it was a bit cheesy, but I like my teen dramas to come with a side of cheese! I mean I’m a twenty-eight year-old woman going to see a movie where the oldest character in the movie is ten years younger than me… how deep are we really expecting this  movie to be? I’ll admit I was a bit disappointed by the ending, but not every love story, that was apparently all in his head, is going to end happily… Alright, in the movies defense, the ending wasn’t bad at all, I, personally, am just a sap for a good love story.

I think the movie was more about this boy breaking out of his shell and finally living. He takes his play it safe friends along for the ride and shenanigans ensue. This movie is really more about the journey than the ending, because the end of anything is really the beginning of something else… I know, look at me being all ensightful. 😛

All in all I give this movie a 3.5 out of 5. It was entertaining, yes, but I think it will be just as entertaining when it comes out on DVD and you rent it for $2.00 to watch in the comfort of your own home…

And the Award Goes To…

7/23/2015

First of all… See link if you have no idea what I’m talking about, but if you’ve been online anytime in the last few days I’m sure you’ve heard what’s going on

Taylor Swift is caught up in another “scandal?” with a fellow musician. Now first of all, I appreciate songs from both these lovely ladies. I have nothing against either of them, but Nicki honey… let’s be real, do you really think your video deserved best choreography and video of the year? I mean have you seen your video? Just because it’s been seen more times than other videos, does not mean its necessarily better; most of the Youtube videos I click on are because someone told me I “had to see” this ridiculous video… and, trust me, this was one of those cases. Let me tell you my first experience with Anaconda… it just made me angry, but what makes me angrier? My friend, let’s call her Feresa, told me she worked with a high schooler that thought Anaconda was an original song… like had never heard Baby Got Back before in their lives… WHAT ARE THESE SCHOOLS TEACHING OUR YOUTHS?! But secondly, I don’t call almost naked women shaking their booties and then some “best choreography,” I call that a standard rap video. Just because you’re a woman doing it does not make it edgy, nor fabulously choreographed.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not one of those “all men are evil” feminists or anything, I believe in equality for all sexes/races/sexual orientations/etc. And I mean, FREE THE NIPPLE! Whatever… what I don’t like seeing is women, objectifying other women. I mean I didn’t like a single thing about that video, and no, it wasn’t because of the race nor their “ghetto booties,” the video was wrong on just so many levels. I wouldn’t be surprised if people watch it and think it’s a musical soft-core porn. So I think Taylor was justified in what she said. Oh, and Nicki, just because you put 500 smiley faces after you say something, doesn’t make the comment any less bitchy…

Now in Nicki’s defense… now this may come as a surprise, but not everything is about you Taylor. That’s it. That’s all I have to say in Nicki’s defense. And even then, I still agree with what Taylor was saying. Stop the girl on girl hate… but for real? If girls just stopped “hating on” each other, world peace might just be possible… or so I’d like to think, haha. I can’t really talk though, because I am totally Queen of the Hatertron Empire, I just spread the hate around for all to share equally.  😉

I guess the ladies hashed it out via twitter for all to see like the “adults” they are, but let me just say this, lets call it a bit of advice for all muh bishes out there… if you don’t want to hear other people’s opinions… don’t post shit online for all to read!!! <3<3<3

Sup Bishes?!

So… I thought I might as well finally put my feelings into words. I mean I always think about trying to write something profound and insightful, but that’s just not who I am… So, instead, I thought I’ll just post my typical sarcastic rants. I mean, it’s not like the internet has enough people going around and bitching about any single thing you could possibly complain about, right?

Anyway, now that we’re past the initial sarcasm for the evening, let’s move on to what today’s rant is really about…

I’m one of you… you know what I mean. I use google for EVERYTHING! It doesn’t matter what it is, I will google it and if 4 out of 5 websites say it’s true, then it MUST BE TRUE!!! But seriously… we never really think about how many stupid people are out there, creating all this knowledge we find online… I’m just hoping a lot of you, like me, make sure to triple check your sources. Don’t get me wrong, I would be truly lost without google, but I feel like sometimes we depend too much on the internet… I say as I sit here writing this blog to absolutely no one…

Well anyway, that’s just what I think. Please have your own opinion! SCREAM what you think, what you want and who you are to the skies! Because that’s what I plan to do…